[감각및지각심리학] “I decide to give up my eyes.”

“I decide to give up my eyes.”

  At first I thought the black world is the most terrifying outcome if I choose to be a blind and I also thought that it is not only the problem I cannot see the world, but also it is the possible problem ‘the world’ can’t see me. What can be the rational reasons for the world to care the people who even cannot see themselves? In addition, what can be the reasonable inferences for me to think that I am living in the world? This talk is not about the welfare, it’s about perception and respect for being or existing itself. All the above things make me more horrified.
  But suddenly I realized that my worrying is based on ‘uncertainty’ when I become a blind and that this moment of the world is also uncertain although I’m not a blind yet. Nobody can define and figure out all the things we see really exists. And we are sufficiently deceived by numerous visual stimuli (advertisements, news, TV programs.) of modern society. I could feel that I was tired of messy and irritating tricks of light.

“Finally I decide to give up my eyes and close slowly.”

  Some changes begin to happen. My eyes become dull but I can feel the movement of eyeballs and can imagine visual figures strongly than after I lost my vision. For instance I automatically imagine certain world made up of some dim but beautiful colored circles which seem like bubble and in that world, some knights fight against other knights. It’s so amazing and also vivid experience because I-the blind-make (because the imagination is my product.)
  Add to that, even I don’t manipulate anything, sounds around me get louder and the air gets sharper. As all my senses except vision become sensitive, my ex-vision starts to change its being. I can sense something and know what it is through my eyes! But it’s not exactly vision. In fact it is auditory, tactile sensation and so forth. And at the same time, other sensor systems build the feeling of seeing. I can see by my ears and skin! Examples for the above explanations; my two eyes feel warmness and I know it is an air of spring; whenever my ears hear the sound of footsteps, they analyze information of owner of the footsteps, project it to my eyes.

“Still I feel and think uncertainty, but…”

  Now I can detect what I cannot detect before. I lose some points of the world, but I gain the other points of the world. If the question on uncertainty cannot be ended any way, I’d find my way for own world of perception. And the blind state is just good for me to live like that way.